What it means to submit...

I've served one person before and I thought I understood what it meant to submit. But truthfully Empress Akari dismantled that illusion within minutes of our first conversation.

Empress Akari has a perfect space, just outside of Cheltenham town centre, filled with many implements and tools, most of which were new to me. She is very clearly proud of the space and that makes you respect it more too. But what sets Her apart is the precision of Her mind. She somehow understands you like someone who's done it a thousand times and still finds it fascinating. Within our initial email conversation, she had mapped me (my insecurities, my bravado, the cracks I didn't know were showing). And then in person, she continued that conversation with so much warmth and curiosity that I felt her smiling even when I wasn't allowed to look at her. Even without being able to see her, I felt as though She could see right through me. And at times, I felt like She allowed me to see into Her. Just a little.

Before she ever laid a finger on me, she invested genuine time understanding who I am and was open to discussing where I wanted to take our dynamic. And I don't just mean what I like, but why I like it, what I'm chasing when I kneel, what fears I mask as limits (she's very clearly slowly unpacking those as each session progresses), and which of my limits deserve absolute respect. As we continue to have more sessions, she asks questions that make me pause mid-reply, rethink, and start to question the difference between a fear and an excuse. She's guiding me to find what I like through what She likes, and what she thinks I can take. Nobody had ever done that to me in this world, and it's intoxicating.

And even though she is incredibly attractive and indescribably sexy, her intellect is where the dynamic really shines. She is truly stunning, and her control, intimacy, intensity, adds to that further. She is worldly, has traveled, and understands the human mind. Once she knows you, the session becomes a conversation conducted through her natural power. Her strikes seem to land more in your head than on your body. Her pauses are impressively calculated, and her whispered instructions arrive exactly when my defences are crumbling and my mind is begging to know where she will take me next. It's clear that she's drawing from everything she learned about me to build something incredibly personal, for Her and for me.

And during a session, I notice myself making constant involuntary sounds. They come from her ability to pull honest noise from my body before my mind can understand it. I stopped trying to control it. That was the moment the first session transformed from something I was enduring into something I was giving. At least I hope that's what She felt from me. To that session, I came prepared. I spent too long working out what to wear. I groomed, I arrived early and waited until the exact minute of my appointment. And I could see that she noticed. Because when Empress Akari sees that you've brought genuine effort, she gives something back that no amount of tribute could purchase: the full, unhurried force of her attention, channelled through that brilliant mind.

I'll be returning often. Because she makes me want to, and because I think knowing Her will help me know myself far more deeply.

~ sub C